Absolutly in Lurrrve

sleepingbeauties

2009-02-07T02:57:18Z

and the three sleeping beauties <3.

    Sleepover with girls which literally ended up being a SLEEPover. I actually dozed off during 'Hum Tum' while the rest followed one by one. So yea we all ended up sleeping. So much for baileys eh girls. I wish i had a camera so tt i can take a pic of the other two sleeping beauties who are still on the bed. NEXT TIME, we are planning ahead on what we're gonna do. and ofcourse, there'll be smores:D

Alotta things have changed. and i dont even know if its my fault. I really tried my best though. Guess it was'nt enough. I've actually given up on this issue.cause like as of now, the only important thing ive to worry about is my common test,my sch attendence which isnt doing so well and yea my project work.My main priority. It hurts.to just let go. but like do i have a choice?

and this goes to my two sleeping beauties.
I know we like rarely meet up cause one's a MIA queen and the other's busy with school and other stuff and with me with my own stuff. But i just know that we'll all be there for each other no matter what happens. I guess we should just start valuing our friendships more. Bitches over bastards.haha I'm looking forward to more years of sleepovers with BAILEYS,SMORES,dailygossipfromjanani:p, and yes my two sleeping beauties.

to janani: Things are not the same between us. Hopefully it'll get better soon. Set a date. We'll head out. Been long yea. I really miss those random food craving moments and PS days.and just know that whatever decisions you make, i'll definitely be there for you. and all the best for your uni applications. <3

to steph: I think we already had that talk yesterday. Hope you remember what i said. Don't go MIA too much yea. cause if not Sharon and I will just stroll to the nearest admiralty police station to lodge a missing person complaint. You know we will. I've nothing much to tell you cause all's been said yesterday. well other than keep your room clean cause me and janani went through ALOT of sneezing and me having to bear repeat mode of independent woman* looks at janani* to get it clean. Good luck for your Alvls results babe.

I hope you two will get a uni in singapore.haha. *prays*

*LOVES*

licklicklickmelikealollipop

2009-01-20T07:49:45Z

and i'm a sucker for chocolates :p

    Orgasms all wrapped up

my seven years

2009-01-20T00:29:33Z

and how stupid can one get?

Its a new year.a new beginning and yes new resolutions.but how screwed up can it get that most of my resolutions has been broken within the first few weeks of the year? The most important ones of my life especially. Disappointing the parents and best friends and ofcourse myself. and the fact that i'm keeping in all these secrets from everyone is not helping me either.

I've had enough of all these ironic crap.PERIOD.

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Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai - Shreya Ghoshal</div>

roughisnice @ 2009-01-06T20:40:00

2009-01-06T12:44:04Z

and she's feeling jealous much.

Met up with smurfy today for lunch and went for abit of shopping and we spoke and spoke.unfinished stuff.He left for gym and i met Haridas and Gowri to get the things for the picnic. *can't waiiit* afterwhich i stuffed myself with B&J's.yummayy cookie dough:p and urgh the added on fats.tempppttttresss

So about one week has passed since that incident and uhm i'm still thinking about it.and i'm a tad bit jealous after looking at his facebook.BUT i'm sure all these will be over when school starts and i get too busy with projects and fucked up classmates. sheesh i really hope so. Been busy with musical rehearsals for the past week and even this week no less. It's a good thing i guess. 'gets my mind off stuff ' Plans for the picnic this sunday is settled although Dev won't be able to make it :( Really hope everything goes well along with the sun sand and the sea.

Gonna go book shopping soon.I've already chosen a few good ones to keep myself busy[hmmmm not again]. and i want school to start!!! Tried on the school uniform today and realised how horrendous it looked.2 fucking more years!! *prays goddamn school will change the fugly uniform*

I just realised i'm getting myself into more and more trouble.well not really.ALMOST getting myself into more and more trouble. I dont need anymore bullshit in my life now.2009's going on fine.just with a slight bit of heartache. More B&J's please:) oh and date with daryll next week! like fiiinaaallly.miss him muchos.so till the next time i feel like LJing.

OH!

HAPPY 50th to the MOM! You're getting bloody old woman! Try to be nicer to me!! and raise my allowance.love ya:)

I want to be able to look at you and not be hurt by you.

lockit

2008-12-17T18:19:59Z

and the livejournal seems dead.

I'm taking a break:)

liarliarpantsonfire

2008-12-03T15:40:17Z

and your eyes are doing that thing where they dont match your mouth.

uhm im confused. I hate this part of me where im lying through my teeth so that nobody figures out anything. okay tts not EXACTLY lying. Hiding stuff rather. and these random dreams are not helping me either. I'm having fucking insomnia!! urgh. I might as well move to Boston with durga considering the time differences. This sucks. and im thinking of getting my bike license instead of my car first.random i know but yes i love bikes. The dad's gonna murder if he finds out but the brother's doing fine all these years hiding the fact tt he got his license.ha.

I asked for a change.yes. but i didnt expect sucha turn of events which is seriously making it so hard for me to handle. The worst part? No one knows about this except for those involved in this and well yea obviously me. and i haaate this.HATE!

vroomvroom

2008-12-02T15:23:59Z

and this time it was different.

I'm hating all these fucking rumors going around about me.and being the paranoid sensitive bitch its not doing me any good. and its not helping my relationships with a certain few friends too.Slaaap me someone. I'm surprised at the twist of events recently but then again i know very well that it wont remain the same. and im not having any hopes. suffered the consequences too many times.

by the wayyy i met Geetha today after eons and did some catching up and met my 2 girls for abit. Casino theme eh? caaant wait!! :))
Drunkfest in a few days.am not really looking forward to it but i dont really have that much of a choice.

Im missing too many people.Sheesh. I want a sleepover soon girls.how how how? I definitely wont say no to baileys or jim beam :p

roughisnice @ 2008-11-22T20:51:00

2008-11-22T14:13:27Z

and if you're talking about the dress, i say higher.

After effects of gymming yesterday: pain pain and more pain all over the body. and today's dance rehearsels didnt help much either. I seriously much to practice for the musical by march 20th. and the press release!! Didnt sleep much for the past few days and tonight imma gonna catch up on my deprived sleep. well not after watching my Gossip Girlsss :)) Met up with jay mary raviiiin and jan yest and i seriously miss BKing with em esp ravin and jan. Oh that Black and White scotch whiskey tasted like fuck i tell you.yucckk

Can't wait for next week to come cause there's so many plans and i finally get to meet friends ive not met for a longg longg time. ive a month or so left and ive yet to touch the books. well ok maybe there's still time anyways.heee

Too many words.Too many people.

I want school to start as soon as possible. God i cant believe i just said those words.

Oh and i realised ive way too many hopes. That's not good for me. A nice quiet place and me could do me some quiet. and then probably a night out with the mates. :)))

alriiight im gona go watch transformers.Ha.

***********

2008-11-17T17:48:56Z

I seriously cant think of anything.

Whirlwind of emotions. I hate the way our relationship is going. I dunwana even think about how it's gonna end cause yes it hurts. But then again this MIGHT be the end to all the problems.FUCK.I'm angry pissed hurt upset and whatnot.

I wish i didnt have to say this to you
but i hate you.

and you're family.fuck.

and its not getting any better each day. so much for happy family eh?

stopthechase

2008-11-12T07:44:22Z

and her mind's in disturbia.

Gossip Girl Epi 9 is taking way too long to load and i'm getting restless. Been gettinng myself occupied with GG and random family bonding sessions for the past week.Ala the cousin's wedding and prini's surprise birthday dinner at Pan Pacific hotel with enough food to make me guilty for another month. and i so need a nail fix. Manicure pampering sessions with Shamini.Caant waait:)

Trynna avoid a few people in my life which is kinda getting really hard to do. Keep my pride and gain nothing or risk all and maybe just MAYBE maybe gain almost everything.Not really that hard of a decision to make but i dont wana be the fool in the end. The brother's going aussie next year and how i wish i wld just leave with him and not come back. A lil' holiday can't be that bad i guess. Alrighty imma go get thee stuff ready to go study with shanty now. yes you heard right! STUDY! and im yawning already.shittaayyy.
I've an itch that only Chuck can scratch!!

typehere

2008-11-04T09:49:52Z

and penning down these thoughts.boriiiiiiiiiiiinggg

I'm so not in the mood to lj but well i just noticed how dead my lj is. so UPDATES UPDATES UPDATES! Exams are finally outta my mind and yeap im promoted. Deepavali '08 was fun despite the fact i was not feeling well. HSM3 was nice the second time i went to watch it. and Halloween was spent at somewhere i really cant remember at the current moment.hmmm k forget it. I'm hating my frigging long holidays for several reasons one of which is because ITS TOO LONG! and ive so many plans and im getting broke. which means indra needs a job.and when was the last time i worked? HMMMM still thinking.

I cannot believe how the year has passed by so quickly and ive achieved what i wanted to this year. Although i seriously feel this year could have been much MUCH better but oh well im so looking forward to an awesome worthwhile holiday and a whole new year of erm fun? and yes please less problems. A better new year's eve celebration yes girls? 2009 awaiiitings.

and now that ive a LONG frigging LONG holiday im gonna try to finish my Season 2 of Gossip Girls.Been missing out on it alot and im missing my Serena and Blair and oh yes CHUCK!

Diwali has been quite down.Halloween? okay we shall not even go there! So Christmas next and this year's gonna be a sweet white christmas.Cant cant wait.

I met all these interesting people for the past few months and ive changed for the better yes.alot better. This phase is gonna last.
These people too.

Stardom.

2.35

2008-10-18T18:37:38Z

and these lies.

Do you realise you're cheating yourself and the people around you?
The people who care for you and really love you so much.
Do you realise how much you're hurting them?
and hurting yourself through that?

Do you realise you're living in a world full of lies?

trapped in her perception of lies.

anotherconfession

2008-10-13T18:38:31Z

and someday somehow.

Things took a VERY interesting change suddenly. Words i heard from someone which i never expected at all. An extremely late night confession yet again.

LOVE

I seriously cannot understand you.

LUST

still figuring out on that one.

but im really glad that he actually confessed to me.everything i hope. So
he changed.I hope. and so when am I gonna even start changing?

I still cant get over that Taalmenz song

3 down.
ihope.

roughisnice @ 2008-10-11T13:14:00

2008-10-11T05:42:03Z

"Eventually the truth comes out and it can set you free or sometimes it can end everything you fought so hard for."

Shisha yesterday with hudsie and yani was really something which i needed. Miss them loads:)) ohhhh and Happy 23 months Nurulhuda Yusro!! The recent week has been awesome apart from a few fucks and im really glad to have all those people in my life now.Appreciate.

and i'm so damn deprived of sleep. Been having late night conferencing with friends which i wont be having anymore when school starts next week. and plans everyday! I've to go for Araathana later cause Rino gave me the guilt treatment. Ive to be there in about 2 hours and im still in my shorts and tee now. I'm not looking forward to seeing a mass parade of indians today.oh wellsssssss.

Shopping Shopping SHOPPING next week!
Chocolate Buffet
Movie date
Shishaaaaaaaa
School:(

choice
wasnt mine.

appreciate

2008-10-08T14:54:07Z

and it just gets better.

Breeks Cafe. Lunch. Surprise Cake:) Sweet Card and Converse Bag birthday present. Awesome gfs. and a super super touched almost tearing ME!!!

Sometimes just sometimes its times like this where you get reminded how awesome your life actually is.

Secondhand Serenade's Your Call is on repeat mode.

Aslan

2008-10-07T07:43:06Z

and peace sign.put the index down.

Updated overdued birthday post:)

Walking all the way from jan's place to yishun mrt barefoot cause e heels were killing me!
Surprise dinner with Saras Shanty Praba Ravin Prasad Viknesh Nathan at Pizza hut with the yummmaay cheesecake they made.
Dinner with the extended family and the brother at Long Beach with yet another cake.
and alot of crying and somehow i realised i had so many bruises and cuts on my body that day.bloody hell

I'm seriously touched and very surprised that a few of them actually remembered and came for the surprise. Viknesh bought me a ring! haha VIKNESH! The secondary sch mates shld know why the exaggeration! :p and Thanks for the Charles and keith bag gowri! and the cakes!

Okay maybe the 19th wasnt thaat bad despite all the drama that day. Still something was missing.

I need to get back to my normal mode.

19th

2008-10-05T00:29:30Z

and blow out your candles and make a wish.

Happy 19th birthday my ass la.
Apart from EVERYTHING which went wrong, there were a few stuff i like to mention which,well, seriously meant alot to me.

1) The really nice cake surprise thing. :)))))gowrilove.jananilove. which vikhkram and jeremy smeared on my face and hair!!!
2) Saras,Shanty and Andrew singing for me happy birthday :) in e conference call. and i didnt even know Andrew was in it too cause he sounded like a girl at first.
3) All those sweethearts who actually remembered and wished me.
4) YOU checking if i was doing fine and not trynna kill myself.
5) Stephy,Vin,Sanjay,Ravin and Siva the cute aussie guy with the cute aussie accent who i think, or rather has concluded, has a crush on nehneh.

Its 8.14 as i type this, trynna keep my eyes open at jan's crib.

`Dee. You saw the light. says:
maybe he's trying to remind u not to be a stupidmotherfuck for the next one yr!!

maybe.

k im gona go sleep. and wake up for more hours of fucked upness.

come on and dance

2008-10-03T13:58:29Z

AND ITS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....      for now.

Exams over and im still stressed out. well yea sorry to all those who've been hearing me complain so much for the past few days and weeks and months! I'm glad exams are over for now but the next big thing: RESULTS! gaaahhh wait wait waiting.

The plans starting from tomorrow:

Saturday
Dance Rehearsal at Jelutong CC *ella ella ella eh eh eh*
VIMAL's 21st Paaartaaay at Indian Association
Clubbing [maybeeeeeee!]

Sunday
The much needed Sleeeep
Meeting my Shanty baby loves :))

Monday
Dinner with Samantha Lew Gui Ling! LIKE FINALLY!!

Wednesday
Meeting the bestie and her other bestie:))

Thursday
Final Tamil literature paper[ okay so exam's not soo over yet]

and the much not so awaited :/
                                                                             DRUNKFEST ' 08

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

orgasms

2008-09-28T07:57:02Z

and SINGAPORE GRANDPRIX IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Singapore GP is gonna officially begin in about 4 hours! and im here mugging for Management of Business! tsktsk. Oh well im gonna be hearing every single detail about it from vimal anyways. Lucky ass is going for it with Shina.

Dhool Finals today and All the best to prasad! *although im rooting for Aerocratz :p*

5 more days and its all over. Hold on.

roughisnice @ 2008-09-19T00:35:00

2008-09-18T16:41:44Z

and she's better now.

THANK GOD FOR GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2!

some pick me ups after some ups and downs :/

roughisnice @ 2008-09-12T00:49:00

2008-09-11T17:07:54Z

and aint no sunshine when she's gone.

"They say summer love is fleeting, but sometimes what starts as a fling can lead to the real thing. A simple trip to the beach could be all it takes to clear our heads and open our hearts. And write a new ending to an old story. There are those who got burned by the heat. They just want to forget and start over. While there are others who want each moment to last forever. But everyone can agree on one thing: tans fade, highlights go dark and we all get sick of sand in our shoes. But the end of summer is the beginning of a new season. So we find ourselves looking to the future. You ain't seen nothin' et.

Just leave please.

~~The pills aint working~~

roughisnice @ 2008-08-25T22:53:00

2008-08-25T14:55:35Z

"Well I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was, but what's happened is in the past, and all I can do is try to change. If you can't accept that, then you're not who I thought you were."

--Serena van der Woodsen

roughisnice @ 2008-08-24T17:54:00

2008-08-24T10:20:57Z

and some secrets she couldnt tell.

My head's spinnniiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnggggggggg!!!!! *jan dont laugh!* I woke up to really loud music and endless phonecalls this morning. Some random malay wedding under my block and the couple must be really rich cause its quite grand. Made in indiaa Made in indiaa!! haha they're playing that song now. So i just finished my MOB assignment like FIINAAALYY! and tts one issue down. Assignments are piling up as usual and im still sooo slack especially with tamil lit. Exams are starting on the 29th and imma gonna ace it :))) mugmugmugmugmugmug

Went to Vathsala's 21st at Yishun Safra with mom yesterday and i must say it was a funny and interesting one. The world is seriously fucking small i tell you. and Prathip is soooooooooo cute! ohmyygosh. Wonder who's gonna be his lucky princess. It was nice to see those who were part of my childhood. Growing up together with them was funnn i say. I really wish that this continues as always.

One more week to my sept hols and i so cant wait for it.Though im sure its gona pass by in a snap. The only thing in my mind now is exams which is well a good thing i guess. and then its just gonna be filled with paaaaaaaaaaaaaartaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy! haha

I found out alot of stuff about myself recently. some soul searching.
Finding the feminist in me. I guess
I guess its a good thing afterall
Im throwing away the keys to the lock.

shabaaboom

2008-08-20T14:56:25Z

and she thinks this is all hilarious.

School has been getting on my nerves as usual. So stressed for exams now even though the exam dates have been postponed. Met hafiz vimal dev and my daaarling hudsie this week. Studying at the library and hanging out at causeway point.yea that has been my daily routine for the past few days. and random bus rides today was awesome cause i met lavania(her name's pronounciation rhymes with lasagne) coincidently.She's my sexaaay bisexual woman.'L WORD'!! Miss her hugs alot man. One more week or so for september holidays and i so cant wait for a whole week of sleeping late and waking up late. God pls hope i survive this whole period.

I should have known that this was the ending of it all.
Sins.

heal

2008-08-15T19:29:38Z

and i lost my directions.

NOT AGAIN. please.I'm too weak to handle any of these issues anymore. Enough.
but then again. I'm the one who created this mess right?

We were talking about relationships today. Pre marital sex' Your partner cheating on you' and being loyal and stuff. and i was just thinking. About how i almost made a few mistakes.again and again.

and im still thinking about it.

I really can't do this anymore.Leave before i fall.deep.

Steady feet don't fail me now.
Imma run till you can't walk.
Something pulls my focus out.
Hang in there.

Trying. and the wounds are still healing.

Absolutly in Lurrrve

**sleepingbeauties**

**licklicklickmelikealollipop**

**my seven years**

roughisnice @ 2009-01-06T20:40:00

**lockit**

**liarliarpantsonfire**

**vroomvroom**

roughisnice @ 2008-11-22T20:51:00

***********

**stopthechase**

**typehere**

**2.35**

**anotherconfession**